I’ve been racking my brain about what to do with my life. I want to do something that has purpose, something that makes me use my passion and interests. I see people that do it all the time but maybe it’s because they have the balls and I don’t. Surely things come easier to come then to others but for me the idea of putting into action something I have an interest in to make my living is a scary thought. What things am I interested in and with that could I make money doing it?
I’ve had an online business before that was somewhat successful. Mind the fact that I didn’t put 100% into it so as to why it wasn’t as successful as it could have been. I am however familiar with what it takes to run such a business. The plan I have in my mind is to do an online store with mystic/hippie/spiritual stuff. Those are things I have a deep interest in that make me happy. I enjoy talking about those things as well as living it day to day. So why not start such a business.
It comes down to this… I HATE working for someone! Sure you get to mindlessly go through your day without the responsibilities of owning a business; however the downside is the freedom to choose how you approach each and every day. When you work for someone they set the pace and expectations. The pressure isn’t with your personal goals in mind rather it’s someone else’s goals you’re trying to reach. That just sucks! As someone who owned her own business in the past I much prefer reaching for my own goals. My job is very stressful. It’s not that I mind stress but I want it to be my stress not stress inflicted upon me due to what upper management believes should be our success.
Who defines success? To me success can be just making it through the day. At times success to me can be making enough sales for the month to pay the bills and live comfortably. On another day success to me can be helping someone who genuinely needed my help. Success isn’t measured by a standard rule rather it’s what you see as your own personal achievement. I come into work each day with one thing on my mind; G_d please let me just get through this day. I end my day with my neck, shoulders and back killing me from the stress of the day. It’s not how I ever imagined my life to become.
I don’t long to be a millionaire, I simply want to live comfortably. I want to be satisfied and content not by others definition but rather my own. For now I’ll do it for fun see where it takes me (the online business). The next step would be to set up a table at outdoor music festivals and such. Finally if I made enough money I’d love to have a physical location to interact with others who come to shop. I know I can make this happen I just have to focus and set a plan in course. It’s not like I haven’t done it before!
Wish me luck!
My Darkside Pleasure 