The weather has been perfect. It’s as if it was fall and the leaves are going to start changing colors! It’s so early for this weather but I’m enjoying it. G_d has blessed us with it and I’m going to enjoy it to the fullest.
I have a coworker who is going through a terrible time emotionally. We’ve all been there. You know when you feel like anything you do has no purpose, you feel unappreciated, depressed, unable to easily trust, and you don’t know how you will make it through. I feel for her because she is a wonderful person who is a joy to work with. She’s very real and doesn’t pretend to be anything but herself.
I wish I could help her get out of her funk. I try to take from my own experiences and share with her how I made it through particular issues. She’s taken some of my advice lately and it’s helping her to feel better… a little bit. At least it’s something. She struggles with her weight and that in itself has her very depressed. Her husband lost his business which has made the single income living very challenging with 3 kids. She has some family drama that is at the peak of explosion. What’s amazing is she takes this all on her shoulders and doesn’t get angry. Sure she gets upset but that’s expected. However the fire isn’t in her (well not yet) and she’s doing a lot of the ow poor me pity me. I really feel bad for her. It’s a terrible place to be in your mind.
What was different in my situation is I got mad… very mad. With that anger my determination to pull through fighting and come out barely scared was fueled with my stubbornness that no one will ever knock me down. I will not dare to say that I didn’t have some horrible lows but I kept picking myself up and moving forward. I never wanted the difficult times to define me. No I wanted my determination to overcome to shine through.
I’m quickly realizing that not everyone thinks this way. I wonder what it is about people that makes them dwell in the misery and others who continue to stand up to it. I hate the feeling of “pity me” that I am the victim all the time. Sure there are times that I appreciate someones compassion to my hurt, but I never want to be in the mode of people always pitying me.
Over the years after all the things I’ve been through I have grown very tough skin. I’m grateful for all the bad experiences in my life because it’s made me a stronger and more determined person. It’s helped me to guide my children better and to help others who feel utterly helpless. I’ve become a very positive person who loves Christ and feel very blessed for all that I have in my life. I love my life!
Thank you Heavenly Father!
My Darkside Pleasure 